nopantsdance

I love to teach myself new things. I managed to get my hands on Xeno Dream and decided i want to teach myself to use it. after reading, playing, and exploring this amazing software, i managed to make my first image.

My excitement doesn’t come from an ego space, but i am really excited to have created this! I have these dreams that i can never put word or picture to and i know if i stick with this i will be able to create my little dream worlds into visuals that will better help me to express my creative self.

sharing bliss is my path.. the journey is still unfolding.

#thankful,
NoPants

When i am asleep i dream..
Eyes closed i let my mind play with all of the subconscious inspirations that the universe has planted into my being.
The colors are vivid.. the smells.. sounds.. feelings are so pure.
Dreaming has become a drug for me.
I know that this inspiration will find a body. right now i’m struggling to put words, sounds, explanations to the things the universe is showing me. Wishing i could place a camera in my mind and show you where i go when i sleep.

when i am awake i dream..
open or closed my eyes process what i see. nose to smells. ears to sounds. body to feelings..
There is a world around me that i wasn’t aware of. Even when i was awake my channels were closed. i wasn’t allowing anything in.
but now..
I am finding inspiration from everything i focus on

a bird. a feather. a bolt. a breeze. a beat. a laugh.
light. sky. sun. trees. flowers blooming. stars dying. bees working. muscles twitching. a pet’s call for attention. colors changing. water moving. temperature rising. the earth cooling. warming. global interaction through the movement of molecules. nails growing. faces aging. bass pulsing. his voice. her voice. our voices blending together making the most blissful note. pitched perfectly to be heard only by those making it. inaudible to the world at large.
super power. layers upon layers building inspiration fitting together.. a puzzle with no picture on the box. always changing. malleable by thought.
instantaneous reaction. Electromagnetic forces forming molecules. exchanging love and light.
Transient blue-shifted absorption.
covalent bonds between strangers. a mysterious connection of love on a molecular level.
I may never know you but i love you. because we are connected through life and through death.. and because there is no greater thing in life to me than to give and receive love.

I’m slowly learning how to capture my inspiration and use it towards something that i can share. elated. life is a beautiful gift. the cycle of living and dying..
loving, giving, receiving.. all of the feelings, thoughts, and desires in between are bliss. so thankful!

What a beautiful day at the nude beach yesterday. we spent the afternoon in the sun, sand, and water waiting for the sun to get lower in the sky before we started @pmimmy’s bohocrush photo shoot. She is such a beautiful goddess.. so happy to get to know her.

Elated was the word of the day. exultant!

i can’t yet put words to where my bliss is leading .. all i can do is smile and share photos.
: ) #bliss

enjoy.

: ) well i almost forgot.. i wanted to share these little Qik videos of our hike the other day. I’ve gone through a wind tunnel of growth in the last few days. I’m feeling so thankful for the path i’m on. Sending love and gratitude.

enjoy.

everything felt like magic!

Again.. it’s hard to get the beauty across with an iphone camera, but i feel the need to capture these moments of inspiration so that i may go back and reflect when i’m feeling stuck or need a reminder of where my bliss shines : )

Even the smallest things in nature bring me so much joy. I was so excited to see this little waterfall. I’ve been drawn to water lately.. calmed by it’s voice and soothed by it’s blanketing touch. Feeling new.

it was so inspiring to be out in nature today! I went on a hike with sho and g and it was just what i needed.  Surrounded by the life of  trees, birds, flowers, wild grasses, damp meadow floors, beautiful rainbow spectrum of flowers, and the buzz of tiny bugs going about their day.

I found a lot of inspiration from the fallen trees around me. The gentle giants who had met their maker and fallen to create more life. Each tree  trunk decomposing in geometric patters. cubes. smaller and smaller the longer it lays there. Some of them worn smooth by the weather creating a metallic almost silk texture that i could not capture in a photo. I brought my iphone and captured a few moments, but i appreciate the times when there is something so beautiful that you can only really experience their beauty in the moment with your eyes : )

Another moment of beauty. . sho & g: observing two people who are so in love was as breath taking as the meadow. They have so much warmth and bliss in their hearts it is truly a gift to be able to observe love at this level. Their bliss has been inspirational on my path and i am thankful to have their light in my life.

now that my mind is on this elated and fresh path i would love to know..
what about nature inspires you? feel free to leave a comment : ) I would LOVE to learn and share more.
when your brain is full and you need to reset. . what do YOU do for new inspiration? : )

love!

feeling the heat of the day fade and trying to net my thoughts as they continuously escape my grasp
returning as i begin to figure out the last one.
switching places.
teasing my confusion.
laughing at me.
I do this to myself. sexual cognition blending with reality.. true desire.
rollercoastering for the first time in…
months.
Needing to seal my eyelids. commit some intoxicated memories into subconscious. recycle them into energy. fuel. function. feeling.
compressing awkward unfamiliar energy.
crown to soles for my soul.
. .    . . .
and back through again. feeling lighter and blissful with each pass.
empty this carrier of anything but
joy
love.
Energetically venting what i do not want to carry as mine. rebirth.reuse.recycle. sweating it, exhaling it, brushing it, releasing it from ducts. rinsing it off. leaving ample space to be refilled. free refills.
thankful for the absence of reassurance.

Last night was such a delight. I haven’t been out on a Sunday in quite a while (looking forward to letting the days of the week blend as i pull myself out of the obligatory world).

I’ve been waiting for the opportunity to arise and I finally got to see BLVD and Souleye live at Brew Brothers What an amazing show! Sunday funday. I was so excited they made it to reno! As i imagined they are all such delightful artists. Full of light and love. offering eargasms by the handful and hypnotizing us all with their musical delights. It was Tripp’s birthday last night.. i found it quite adorable that the crowd busted out a  happy birthday song after their set. so much love in their fans! Plenty of fun, laughs, good times were had after the show. ; )

anywho.. I love to share music and artists who inspire me so here you are my loves. I’ll do my best to do this with other artists as the time to share comes.
You can go here to read about them and follow their journey. I love collaboration. So beautiful to fuse your creative energy with others to make something that would otherwise never exist. it’s a beautiful thing to share.  And you can follow them on Twitter: @dylancahill, @Curtis_Sloane, @Souleye,  @Trippon , and @BLVDsource

Sending lots of love to the guys as they are touring and sharing their bliss.
Love & Gratitude

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about the little things i do on a daily basis..which lead and build on the bigger things i do on a daily basis.. which also lead to the little and big things that i DON’T do on a daily basis.. both good and bad..

We are such little beings with such few requirements for survival yet some insist on making things complicated. dramatic. hard.. or some do things that make them unhappy because they “HAVE TO”.
says who?
why? when did the masses get permission to tell me yes or no? why can’t i quit my job and persue a life of beautiful artistic bliss.. doing what i WANT to do in order to get by.. survive yet still remain 100% in my bliss and live in a world i create.. i have a choice.
I gave my notice at work today. It felt like the right thing to do : ) and i’m happy with the decision.
I’ve pulled out a new focus from within myself in the last 48 hours. I know what i don’t want to be doing and i suppose that’s one step closer to discovering the path that will lead me to what i want.
at this moment i just want to be happy. and create these things that sit in my mind.. in my sexual, creative,  blissful, dancing life vault.
Well.. it’s open now.. let us see what’s inside.

i will do what i desire in order to survive. I’m not afraid. It feels good to be making decisions in my life based on what i want to do and not what everyone around me thinks i should do.
more to come..
for now.. back to random rab and Lord of the Flies
sleep sweet

I have been having the most vivid and wild dreams the last few nights.
Usually they’re PG13 at most but last night..
well.. last night it got a little more sexual
allow me to elaborate

i was in an unfamiliar bed in a city that is much noisier than the one i live in.
The night air was crisp and salty.. not quite thick but heavy enough to require only a sheet for a blanket.
I lay there naked with my focus on the muffled noises outside of your open window
and the soft moan of a fan on the window ledge and music playing low.
My pussy was pulsating like it does when i’ve had a good slow deep hard fuck..
i was euphoric.. unaware of the day.. time.. anything but the wet pleasure dripping between my legs.

Your touch pulled me out of a speechless trance and my toes went numb as all the blood in my body would rush to wherever you pressed your hands.
holding me.. Laying behind me you rubbed your hands up my chest over my breasts and stopped at my neck.. your grip was firm but you didn’t squeeze.. only pulled my face to yours and kissed me long and wet.. our mouths engulfed in each others lust.. you whispered low and rhythmic in my ear “again?..more.. can i have you again?” the way you asked it i could tell you already knew the answer but i kept you wondering without an answer just a little longer. Your hands now running up between my shoulder blades you gathered a hand full of my hair and gently pulled exposing the back of my neck and making a clear path for you to kiss and bite.. making my back arch and a sigh of delight leak from my lips. This feels familiar.. as though in this dream life.. you do this often and know how to play with me just how i like it.
Your hands run firmly down my side and over my hips. you grabbed my ass with conviction.. you knew all the pressure points of my sexual being. you flipped me over on my belly and sunk your fingers in.. massaging my butt.. my head was dizzy as the blood in my body raced to keep up with your skillful hands. All of that rubbing made my ass perk up.. my pussy begging for attention. a lick. a pet. the hot sting of a spank on my ass and i couldn’t be silent anymore.. i moaned out “yes.. have me.. fuck me..please”
You handled my request nicely.. ass in the air you licked my pussy.. warm tongue.. slowly teasing. around my clit.. sucking lightly.. knowing you could now have me in any way you please..
I breathed deeply and slowly.. enjoying every teasing moment of it.
slowly you put the tip of your cock in my pussy. ALL senses were alert. even the tips of my fingers tingled with delight. slowly.. gently.. you tipped in teasing.. making me moan and ask for it all. with one firm grip on my ass you slowly thrusted in.. a hot wet desire i had been begging for.. my pussy full of your penis.
You fucked me any way i asked for it.. all night.. taking breathers now and then.. our legs tangled in the sheet as we talked between fucking.
I climaxed the last fuck we had.. as the sun came up.. me on top.. you sitting up in bed.. your cock deep inside me.. hands bound behind my back as you pulled my hair and played with a vibrator on my clit .

I woke breathing heavy and a little confused as to why it wasn’t real.
: ) looking forward to going to sleep tonight.. even if we don’t fuck.. i still like dreaming about you.

The soft hum of loves instrument vibrating deep within.
Glitching at moments that can only be described as human.
the melody is constant.
underlaying as a reminder that no matter what stumbles you take
we are all the same.
a constant reminder of your roots.
not family or heritage..
who you truly are at all moments when any emotion is showing.

Always evolving and growing
planting new roots with each nutrient rich discovery.
never different not always the same.

May i make a suggestion?
Don’t pick these flowers.
Lay down.
bury yourself in this earth.
wrap my vines around your arms
roots around your legs.
grains of sand between your toes
breathe this earthly scent
hints of Lavender.. Vanilla
soak in the vibrations of loves instruments
hum.. pulsation.. a memory made deep into your subconscience
unforgettable.. this meditation brings no answers.
only recommendations.
a glimpse of what is inside this cave
often hidden.
overlooked.
kept secret.
unknown.
the purpose is not to be understood  by  all..
or any..
this reflection. rainbow. light spectrum..
comes from within me.
a looking glass into a rabbit hole.
emblazoned with light only to find darkness at the end
the finality of this path cannot be foretold.
On this journey you will have to find out on your own.