showering my thoughts with appreciation for these lessons, and for things i have yet to learn.
understanding that if i desire to grow, i must nurture
if i desire to learn, i must teach,
if i desire to be found, i must allow myself to seek

there is no right or wrong, only what i allow myself to perceive.
negative can be positive if that is how i allow it to be.
i can change the past with my attitude.
i can change the future with my intentions.
i can live in this moment and allow myself to grow.

breathe slow.

Awareness of self, of motivation, of desire.
one fiber in an infinitely spiraling fabric of time.
life, death, cyclical resurrections of consciousness.
a brain weighted with new information
yet remaining light as air
moving through the infinitely small, infinitely large, dense space around me.

reflecting inwards in a world that currently reflects outward.
reflecting our faults upon each other in judgments and negativity.
disconnecting from the whole to be an individual yet seeking approval from each other.

making the choice to mirror self love and universal love.
after all.. there is only one of us here.

“the universe needs you”
finding a voice, building a vocabulary.
this information feels cellular, encoded within me
i’m now learning how to speak the language.
to communicate
to express

how could i express me to myself when i wasn’t connecting in..
completely tapping in to my own portal to the universe.
looking for the world to tell me how to be and what is right.
no one really knows what is best for me. only i can find my truth.

how does a sun worshiping plant grow in an environment made dark?
Does it adapt to the new conditions and evolve into something different?
[different] positive or negative in the sense of the word.. that is a personal choice.
or does it seek another path to light..
is there familiarity.. least resistance.
is that path not seen because of a lack of insight, is that path existing in plain sight?
is it difficult to see that path simply because a choice is made not to believe?
Maybe it dies.. perhaps the way back into the light is to change form all together..
to give your matter back to the universe for use in another avenue.

living love, practicing bliss

elated.

slipping through my fingers.
anticipating that kiss that hasn’t happened
enjoying it as the thought lingers.

curiosity often kills the cat
so i’m doing my best to decipher
cryptically straight forward answers.
perplexing brevity leaves me without clarity.

an unpredicted derelict fate
a vessel soon abandoned by both
without any hope or intention of returning
left with a sweet taste of yearning

i received your message
and learned my lesson
now my choices have left me discerning.
quick to understand
that as quickly as i’ve got it
its slipped out of my hand.

the future is unknowable,
but i don’t seek that insight.
i just want to open my heart
and let in more light.

Nikki is always a pleasure to work with. She makes the cutest little dorky faces at me while i’m doing her hair and makeup.. which is always a nice reminder to smile and be silly.

This girl could keep herself entertained forever with the endless goodies and toys she keeps in her purse: tarot cards, scarves, snacks, toys.. i bet she’s got some magic Mary Poppins stuff going on in there.

One thing i’ve always loved about nikki is her ability to just have fun in life. She is so rooted with herself yet light as a feather.. always smiling and giggling. it was such a treat to be around her energy tonight. she’s an example of why i choose to surround myself with open, positive, loving people. it would be impossible to frown around this little goddess.

Love to love you nikki!

and to compliment her sweetness.. she could totally kick someones ass if needed; )

we all play our parts in making these shoots happen. I’m so thankful to create with this team of amazing humans. thank you sho and g for allowing me this experience. i’m forever grateful.

you can find more behind the scenes of a bohocrush photo shoot posts on the bohocrush blog. And if you’re interested in being a crush doll, boho boy, or perhaps doing a shoot with someone.. please contact me and at kendra(@)bohocrush(.)com and i will be more than happy to answer questions and schedule your bohocrush photo shoot.

with love and gratitude,
kendra

I’ve been flirting with this guy
i can feel myself starting to retract.
a photo is timeless and the internet provides a barrier.
so yes… i’m shy.

i put myself out there because naked is beautiful and i’m not ashamed of my extrovert life. There is a gift in flirting openly and just being yourself. the monkey comes out and primal instincts float freely.

it’s an art to balance being me and not giving too easily.
it’s not difficult to portray my sexual side to someone i’m attracted to. i can control my hunger.
the difficulty comes in how that person receives me.
that side i can’t control used to defeat me.
i seek respect with your appreciation, reciprocation,
and if the universe wills it.. a little penetration.

with the exchange, conversion, and my deep dirty perversion you’d be surprised that it always ends at just flirting.
sometimes i like that.. a little tease to wet my kitty cat.

but now and then i remember to let the universe know what it needs to know. my intentions, desires, and then just go with the flow

i was sitting in front of the fire last night surrounded by the laughter and chatter of by beautiful friends and boho family, when i found myself remarkably aware of how thankful i am for my journey.

I asked myself, “are you thankful every day?”
without hesitation i answered myself, “YES! i am!”

and then i wondered.. “do i live as though i am thankful every day?” and i did not have a clear yes or no answer. Although i am aware of my deepening gratitude for this adventure, the secrets of the universe, and the joys i surround myself with, i feel like i can be actively living my life with more gratitude every day.

i am making a point to give recognition and love every day. i can either share it in my online playgrounds, or i can take time to reflect in the quiet comforts of my mind. Either way, i find joy in furthering my gratitude by living it.. acknowledging it.. and sharing it.

sending out warm thoughts and love to the universe. We’re all on one amazing journey. love, light, gratitude
kendra

grow.

i had the most beautiful conversation with the moon.
she explained the reason our tides pull so magnetically together into one..
until everything is so unified we cannot decipher who belongs to the energy or if it belongs to us.
it’s a circular path.
a vortex of knowledge that we pool into one consciousness without ego.
this lesson is that we are all one with no power over another.
our turmoil is our inner struggle to let go of the control and just be.
to coexist.
to co create.
to live as community.
to live in communication free from limitation.
without the power struggle there is really only one of us here.

to live freely.. wings open with uninhibited love and desire.
knowing that what is.. only is because i believe it to be.
my reality a realization of my mind’s fantasy.
manifestations of my truths..
i believe them to be as easily as one may believe them not to be.

love.. a vessel capable of healing all.
community.. a vessel capable of love
i believe in my illusion.
enthralled to be alive. curious of what comes after.

haven’t been here before.. signs of neon warning.
blue flags directing me forward with salacious caution.
Always with a smile
a hungry heart eating its way out.
carnivorous.. eager.

an appetite for adventure,
bliss
naked sweating passion filled flurries between the sheets.
been so long i’ve begun hallucinating.
fantasy flickering in reality weaving a satisfying web.
how much longer..
will i explode?
implode?
reincarnate..