29/12/2009
moving slow through an ambiguous flow
staying open to several possible meanings
while every scenario becomes fleeting.
chasing my lucid dreams
slipping through my fingers.
anticipating that kiss that hasn’t happened
enjoying it as the thought lingers.
curiosity often kills the cat
so i’m doing my best to decipher
cryptically straight forward answers.
perplexing brevity leaves me without clarity.
an unpredicted derelict fate
a vessel soon abandoned by both
without any hope or intention of returning
left with a sweet taste of yearning
i received your message
and learned my lesson
now my choices have left me discerning.
quick to understand
that as quickly as i’ve got it
its slipped out of my hand.
the future is unknowable,
but i don’t seek that insight.
i just want to open my heart
and let in more light.
20/12/2009
I’ve been flirting with this guy
i can feel myself starting to retract.
a photo is timeless and the internet provides a barrier.
so yes… i’m shy.
i put myself out there because naked is beautiful and i’m not ashamed of my extrovert life. There is a gift in flirting openly and just being yourself. the monkey comes out and primal instincts float freely.
it’s an art to balance being me and not giving too easily.
it’s not difficult to portray my sexual side to someone i’m attracted to. i can control my hunger.
the difficulty comes in how that person receives me.
that side i can’t control used to defeat me.
i seek respect with your appreciation, reciprocation,
and if the universe wills it.. a little penetration.
with the exchange, conversion, and my deep dirty perversion you’d be surprised that it always ends at just flirting.
sometimes i like that.. a little tease to wet my kitty cat.
but now and then i remember to let the universe know what it needs to know. my intentions, desires, and then just go with the flow
21/11/2009
we moved slow motion.
smooth like thick dark chocolate..
sweet and velvet
completely everlasting and tasty.
she sucked lightly on my tongue
gently biting my lower lip.
our breasts catching on each other then slipping from the heat.
warm glowing passion.
synchronized breathing
deep and long.. drawn out as though neither of us wanted to reach an end.. a climax.. because the rise was so exhilarating.
her hands grasped so powerfully with a tender intention.
lusting after the scent of one another.
tangled in our carefree moans and luscious curves
pulses tapping through our finger tips
a morse code of secrets between her cells and mine.
magic kisses from head to toe
a butterfly who didn’t want to pick a place to land
planned chaos fueled deep seeded wanting.
enraptured in the moment with a cosmic driving force
a moment so wet you could drink it.
desert heat dehydration finally being quenched.
all nerves exposed
tingling with anticipation
lead by the unpredictable.
a moment so beautiful
my mouth wrapped around her juicy pussy
her mouth caressing mine
keeping time with the song that started this dance.
Taking us on a roller coaster of lusting.
both of our bodies grasping.. holding so gently
and racing with the ride.
breathing in deeply the scent of one another.
intoxicated by such a hypnotic flower.
both of us riding the same wave of awareness.
matching moans in a song like conversation.
humming whispers of pleasure to one another
until we’ve come to a point of maximum capacity
and must release this pleasure into each others mouths.
indescribable senses of desire pour out as i feel her pussy throb and taste the sweet satisfaction of our sexual journey.
tasting myself on her lips.. tasting her on mine
that beautiful kiss.
a cocktail of passion and bliss.
two goddesses melded into one
20/09/2009
momentarily sucked into a vortex of desire.
an unfamiliar addiction to an inexperienced experience.
Not loneliness..
void of definition by any human vocabulary.
haven’t been here before.. signs of neon warning.
blue flags directing me forward with salacious caution.
Always with a smile
a hungry heart eating its way out.
carnivorous.. eager.
an appetite for adventure,
bliss
naked sweating passion filled flurries between the sheets.
been so long i’ve begun hallucinating.
fantasy flickering in reality weaving a satisfying web.
how much longer..
will i explode?
implode?
reincarnate..
31/07/2009
I was recently asked via dm on twitter what the perfect man would be to me. My first thought was “there is no such thing as perfect”. We are always growing and evolving.. learning and making mistakes. I have never been on a path to find the perfect man. After quite a bit of thought i decided this:
He will be perfectly imperfect.. to me.
A creative spirit.. an artist.. always finding inspiration in the world around him, worlds unknown, and in worlds of the past. He would be of similar mindset as me when it comes to “work”.. we would find bliss in any journey we choose, but would not go about the world in any “normal” behavioral patterns. No 9-5 job to keep us limited. He would understand that it’s good to “be hungry” always searching for new and old to push us beyond our life limits.
he would sleep and wake with me as we were tired and awake, refusing the possibility of waking up at the same time every day to an alarm. In this way we would respect our bodies and their need to rest.
He would be connected to his body in many aspects. Listening to its animal urges and fuck me passionately whenever our hearts desired. I want a man who can look at me in line at the grocery store and decide he has to have me in the parking lot because home is a little bit TOO far away. There is no room for fear in a relationship with me.. there is just too much to enjoy about each other.
He would be my best friend. We would turn to one another to talk out our uncertainties and to relish in the golden light of another sunrise spent side by side. There would be no arguments or fights because fighting is simply lashing out your self doubts on an undeserving party. Communication would be the underlying foundation to our entire ralationship. Love, sex, decisions, simple things such as what to eat for breakfast or if he’s too tired to have sex.. all things big and small can avoid argument with proper communication and with each other we would learn the best way to communicate our needs and desires.
He would need to be open to whatever sexual exploits i wanted to delve in to. i would never make him take one for the team, but i will not let my sexuality be hindered by his insecurities or fears. In turn i would be open to his sexual desires. I’ve learned that sexual relationships take time to grow and you can’t always jump into something because you think it’s what the other person wants.. this is where the communication comes in again. I want to hear every though about what ever sexual pool we dive in to. Feelings don’t need to be hurt. I am aware that hormones can take over, and that is exactly why i want a man who will think not only of his own sexual desires but of mine as well.. in a few short words… i want a man who will worship me and my pussy and i will worship him and his cock : )
I don’t believe there is one most important thing to any relationship but sex is important to me as i am a ravenously sexual woman. I am also a giant internet loving geek so he would have to be ok with that too. No matter where we take our light in the world i would want to be capturing our adventures on video, blog post, podcast, photos, and web cam. He must certainly not be scared to show the world himself. I am me.. every day.. in all things i do in life and on the internet.. i am myself and i won’t hide it from the world.
Some may say this seems picky or demanding, but why would i settle for a guy who makes me sacrifice what makes me happy. I could be single forever or i could find a man who will not resist the bliss. I’m not afraid to be alone. I know there is a man (and a woman..) who can handle the NoPantsDance : )
Although this is a pretty lengthy answer i have kept things pretty vague. I’m not cataloging specifics.. height, weight, hair color, that is all blah blah blah. you never know who will love until you truly know that person. That will take time, but time is relevant and situational so i prefer to keep my eyes, ears, and heart open to whatever love the universe shows me.
does that answer? sort of? hahaa
21/07/2009
What a beautiful day at the nude beach yesterday. we spent the afternoon in the sun, sand, and water waiting for the sun to get lower in the sky before we started @pmimmy’s bohocrush photo shoot. She is such a beautiful goddess.. so happy to get to know her.
Elated was the word of the day. exultant!
i can’t yet put words to where my bliss is leading .. all i can do is smile and share photos.
: ) #bliss
enjoy.
30/06/2009
I have been having the most vivid and wild dreams the last few nights.
Usually they’re PG13 at most but last night..
well.. last night it got a little more sexual
allow me to elaborate
i was in an unfamiliar bed in a city that is much noisier than the one i live in.
The night air was crisp and salty.. not quite thick but heavy enough to require only a sheet for a blanket.
I lay there naked with my focus on the muffled noises outside of your open window
and the soft moan of a fan on the window ledge and music playing low.
My pussy was pulsating like it does when i’ve had a good slow deep hard fuck..
i was euphoric.. unaware of the day.. time.. anything but the wet pleasure dripping between my legs.
Your touch pulled me out of a speechless trance and my toes went numb as all the blood in my body would rush to wherever you pressed your hands.
holding me.. Laying behind me you rubbed your hands up my chest over my breasts and stopped at my neck.. your grip was firm but you didn’t squeeze.. only pulled my face to yours and kissed me long and wet.. our mouths engulfed in each others lust.. you whispered low and rhythmic in my ear “again?..more.. can i have you again?” the way you asked it i could tell you already knew the answer but i kept you wondering without an answer just a little longer. Your hands now running up between my shoulder blades you gathered a hand full of my hair and gently pulled exposing the back of my neck and making a clear path for you to kiss and bite.. making my back arch and a sigh of delight leak from my lips. This feels familiar.. as though in this dream life.. you do this often and know how to play with me just how i like it.
Your hands run firmly down my side and over my hips. you grabbed my ass with conviction.. you knew all the pressure points of my sexual being. you flipped me over on my belly and sunk your fingers in.. massaging my butt.. my head was dizzy as the blood in my body raced to keep up with your skillful hands. All of that rubbing made my ass perk up.. my pussy begging for attention. a lick. a pet. the hot sting of a spank on my ass and i couldn’t be silent anymore.. i moaned out “yes.. have me.. fuck me..please”
You handled my request nicely.. ass in the air you licked my pussy.. warm tongue.. slowly teasing. around my clit.. sucking lightly.. knowing you could now have me in any way you please..
I breathed deeply and slowly.. enjoying every teasing moment of it.
slowly you put the tip of your cock in my pussy. ALL senses were alert. even the tips of my fingers tingled with delight. slowly.. gently.. you tipped in teasing.. making me moan and ask for it all. with one firm grip on my ass you slowly thrusted in.. a hot wet desire i had been begging for.. my pussy full of your penis.
You fucked me any way i asked for it.. all night.. taking breathers now and then.. our legs tangled in the sheet as we talked between fucking.
I climaxed the last fuck we had.. as the sun came up.. me on top.. you sitting up in bed.. your cock deep inside me.. hands bound behind my back as you pulled my hair and played with a vibrator on my clit .
I woke breathing heavy and a little confused as to why it wasn’t real.
: ) looking forward to going to sleep tonight.. even if we don’t fuck.. i still like dreaming about you.
1/06/2009
Light the candles and turn off the lights.
close the door .. lock it behind me.
Turn on some music.. something with a lot of bass.
there is something about a low seductive voice and thick bass makes my pussy wet.
Dildo and vibrator on the pillow next to me i climb on my bed and relax feeling the coolness melt over my body.
I start out just touching myself..
finger pressure on my thighs.. pulling my knees up to my chest.. feet over my head..
Grabbing my ass and feeling a rush of hot and cold as i’ve anticipated this time with myself all day.
Rubbing my finger tips softly over my nipples and down the sides of my stomach.
It gives me goose bumps and makes me shiver as all the blood rushes to my now swollen pussy.
i grab my pink bullet and rub it’s smooth tip over my clit slowly..
no vibration yet just the sensation of an object gently moving my body’s lubrication.. warming me up for the penetration of my double headed pink boyfriend : )
my nipples harden as my own touch causes just enough friction in my thoughts to long for a set of hands to squeeze and caress my breasts.. a mouth to nibble and flick.
A fantasy comes to mind.. a certain man.. certain hands.. naughty words.. gentle hair pulling.. tight ass slapping (it’s all in the wrist)
his voice enters my thoughts. his raspy.deep.quick words are just enough to make me beg or penetration.
tonight my dildo is my pussy’s best friend. At this point i’m so wet i can feel my juices dripping down my ass.
The first feeling of penetration sends a warm chill up my spine and i can’t help but sigh with relief.. the day’s stress is gone and all i can think about is the rhythm of my hands slowly pulling and pushing the dildo in.. out.
The fantasy grows as i role play the beautiful dirty words.. his deep whisper in my ear as he fucks me from behind.. pressing his stomach against my back. rubbing this little pink bullet against my clit.. on his cock.. on his balls.. back to my pussy.
pulling his cock deeper into my pussy using my hips.. ass in the air. running his hands from my neck to my ass.
squeezing firmly.. massaging as he fucks me slow and deep..
it doesn’t take long until this fantasy has me paralyzed with pleasure and i try to remember to breathe as i cum hard and think about our bodies pressed close together grabbing.. pulling.. sweating.. biting.. pushing.. cumming.
Damn .. i’m horny.