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If you haven’t met yet.. let me introduce you to @nikkiNOISE. Nikki was in town visiting for the holidays so i was eager to book her a shoot before she was swept away on her adventures in life.. next time we do a photo shoot with nikki we will be traveling to her : )

Nikki is always a pleasure to work with. She makes the cutest little dorky faces at me while i’m doing her hair and makeup.. which is always a nice reminder to smile and be silly.

This girl could keep herself entertained forever with the endless goodies and toys she keeps in her purse: tarot cards, scarves, snacks, toys.. i bet she’s got some magic Mary Poppins stuff going on in there.

One thing i’ve always loved about nikki is her ability to just have fun in life. She is so rooted with herself yet light as a feather.. always smiling and giggling. it was such a treat to be around her energy tonight. she’s an example of why i choose to surround myself with open, positive, loving people. it would be impossible to frown around this little goddess.

Love to love you nikki!

and to compliment her sweetness.. she could totally kick someones ass if needed; )

we all play our parts in making these shoots happen. I’m so thankful to create with this team of amazing humans. thank you sho and g for allowing me this experience. i’m forever grateful.

you can find more behind the scenes of a bohocrush photo shoot posts on the bohocrush blog. And if you’re interested in being a crush doll, boho boy, or perhaps doing a shoot with someone.. please contact me and at kendra(@)bohocrush(.)com and i will be more than happy to answer questions and schedule your bohocrush photo shoot.

with love and gratitude,
kendra

I was recently asked via dm on twitter what the perfect man would be to me. My first thought was “there is no such thing as perfect”. We are always growing and evolving.. learning and making mistakes. I have never been on a path to find the perfect man. After quite a bit of thought i decided this:

He will be perfectly imperfect.. to me.
A creative spirit.. an artist.. always finding inspiration in the world around him, worlds unknown, and in worlds of the past. He would be of similar mindset as me when it comes to “work”.. we would find bliss in any journey we choose, but would not go about the world in any “normal” behavioral patterns. No 9-5 job to keep us limited. He would understand that it’s good to “be hungry” always searching for new and old to push us beyond our life limits.
he would sleep and wake with me as we were tired and awake, refusing the possibility of waking up at the same time every day to an alarm. In this way we would respect our bodies and their need to rest.
He would be connected to his body in many aspects. Listening to its animal urges and fuck me passionately whenever our hearts desired. I want a man who can look at me in line at the grocery store and decide he has to have me in the parking lot because home is a little bit TOO far away. There is no room for fear in a relationship with me.. there is just too much to enjoy about each other.
He would be my best friend. We would turn to one another to talk out our uncertainties and to relish in the golden light of another sunrise spent side by side. There would be no arguments or fights because fighting is simply lashing out your self doubts on an undeserving party. Communication would be the underlying foundation to our entire ralationship. Love, sex, decisions, simple things such as what to eat for breakfast or if he’s too tired to have sex.. all things big and small can avoid argument with proper communication and with each other we would learn the best way to communicate our needs and desires.
He would need to be open to whatever sexual exploits i wanted to delve in to. i would never make him take one for the team, but i will not let my sexuality be hindered by his insecurities or fears. In turn i would be open to his sexual desires. I’ve learned that sexual relationships take time to grow and you can’t always jump into something because you think it’s what the other person wants.. this is where the communication comes in again. I want to hear every though about what ever sexual pool we dive in to. Feelings don’t need to be hurt. I am aware that hormones can take over, and that is exactly why i want a man who will think not only of his own sexual desires but of mine as well.. in a few short words… i want a man who will worship me and my pussy and i will worship him and his cock : )

I don’t believe there is one most important thing to any relationship but sex is important to me as i am a ravenously sexual woman. I am also a giant internet loving geek so he would have to be ok with that too. No matter where we take our light in the world i would want to be capturing our adventures on video, blog post, podcast, photos, and web cam. He must certainly not be scared to show the world himself. I am me.. every day.. in all things i do in life and on the internet.. i am myself and i won’t hide it from the world.
Some may say this seems picky or demanding, but why would i settle for a guy who makes me sacrifice what makes me happy. I could be single forever or i could find a man who will not resist the bliss. I’m not afraid to be alone. I know there is a man (and a woman..) who can handle the NoPantsDance : )

Although this is a pretty lengthy answer i have kept things pretty vague. I’m not cataloging specifics.. height, weight, hair color, that is all blah blah blah. you never know who will love until you truly know that person. That will take time, but time is relevant and situational so i prefer to keep my eyes, ears, and heart open to whatever love the universe shows me.

does that answer? sort of? hahaa

What a beautiful day at the nude beach yesterday. we spent the afternoon in the sun, sand, and water waiting for the sun to get lower in the sky before we started @pmimmy’s bohocrush photo shoot. She is such a beautiful goddess.. so happy to get to know her.

Elated was the word of the day. exultant!

i can’t yet put words to where my bliss is leading .. all i can do is smile and share photos.
: ) #bliss

enjoy.

: ) well i almost forgot.. i wanted to share these little Qik videos of our hike the other day. I’ve gone through a wind tunnel of growth in the last few days. I’m feeling so thankful for the path i’m on. Sending love and gratitude.

enjoy.

everything felt like magic!

Again.. it’s hard to get the beauty across with an iphone camera, but i feel the need to capture these moments of inspiration so that i may go back and reflect when i’m feeling stuck or need a reminder of where my bliss shines : )

Even the smallest things in nature bring me so much joy. I was so excited to see this little waterfall. I’ve been drawn to water lately.. calmed by it’s voice and soothed by it’s blanketing touch. Feeling new.

I have been having the most vivid and wild dreams the last few nights.
Usually they’re PG13 at most but last night..
well.. last night it got a little more sexual
allow me to elaborate

i was in an unfamiliar bed in a city that is much noisier than the one i live in.
The night air was crisp and salty.. not quite thick but heavy enough to require only a sheet for a blanket.
I lay there naked with my focus on the muffled noises outside of your open window
and the soft moan of a fan on the window ledge and music playing low.
My pussy was pulsating like it does when i’ve had a good slow deep hard fuck..
i was euphoric.. unaware of the day.. time.. anything but the wet pleasure dripping between my legs.

Your touch pulled me out of a speechless trance and my toes went numb as all the blood in my body would rush to wherever you pressed your hands.
holding me.. Laying behind me you rubbed your hands up my chest over my breasts and stopped at my neck.. your grip was firm but you didn’t squeeze.. only pulled my face to yours and kissed me long and wet.. our mouths engulfed in each others lust.. you whispered low and rhythmic in my ear “again?..more.. can i have you again?” the way you asked it i could tell you already knew the answer but i kept you wondering without an answer just a little longer. Your hands now running up between my shoulder blades you gathered a hand full of my hair and gently pulled exposing the back of my neck and making a clear path for you to kiss and bite.. making my back arch and a sigh of delight leak from my lips. This feels familiar.. as though in this dream life.. you do this often and know how to play with me just how i like it.
Your hands run firmly down my side and over my hips. you grabbed my ass with conviction.. you knew all the pressure points of my sexual being. you flipped me over on my belly and sunk your fingers in.. massaging my butt.. my head was dizzy as the blood in my body raced to keep up with your skillful hands. All of that rubbing made my ass perk up.. my pussy begging for attention. a lick. a pet. the hot sting of a spank on my ass and i couldn’t be silent anymore.. i moaned out “yes.. have me.. fuck me..please”
You handled my request nicely.. ass in the air you licked my pussy.. warm tongue.. slowly teasing. around my clit.. sucking lightly.. knowing you could now have me in any way you please..
I breathed deeply and slowly.. enjoying every teasing moment of it.
slowly you put the tip of your cock in my pussy. ALL senses were alert. even the tips of my fingers tingled with delight. slowly.. gently.. you tipped in teasing.. making me moan and ask for it all. with one firm grip on my ass you slowly thrusted in.. a hot wet desire i had been begging for.. my pussy full of your penis.
You fucked me any way i asked for it.. all night.. taking breathers now and then.. our legs tangled in the sheet as we talked between fucking.
I climaxed the last fuck we had.. as the sun came up.. me on top.. you sitting up in bed.. your cock deep inside me.. hands bound behind my back as you pulled my hair and played with a vibrator on my clit .

I woke breathing heavy and a little confused as to why it wasn’t real.
: ) looking forward to going to sleep tonight.. even if we don’t fuck.. i still like dreaming about you.

My first year on the playa was 2008 American Dream and let me tell you… Black Rock City is a sureal dream land where love and light is in every speck of dust. I don’t think i will ever look at life the same after my first experience on the playa.

It’ s about that time again and all my friends are gathering to plan their camps and organize their chaos. I on the other hand have been stirring my memories.

such a beautiful soul

So what’s been stiring my memory pot? well, last week @gcrush ’s playa shoot went up and she followed it up with a blast from playa past. The few experiences she shared evoked so much longing and gratitude it made my eyes well up with tears.

My first night on the playa was the sunday before the gates opened. We were having a HUGE party for the dpw  i got to bar tend with the wheel of debauchery.

i painted it myself hahaa

It turns out i’m quite the naughty bar tender. I was getting cock flashes.. pussy flashes.. spanks.. licks.. whips.. motor boats.. and all sorts of creative things that weren’t even on the wheel.  I was given the name Ms.Pussy because of my kitty ear hat and got my ass branded with “skank” in pink spray paint. endless fun!! I’ll never forget those 9 days  with my family of strangers.

I fell down a rabbit hole:

and i landed into a world created by @gcrush and the community of bohocrush kids.

i must say that my most precious journey on the playa was the time spent alone.. it seemed as though people were paired up exploring together but i spent the majority of my time with myself.. exploring in the sunshine and absorbing life in the darkenss. I got to know so much about me.  . .

i am forever grateful to have had my first bohocrush photo shoot at my first burn. I had been doing hair and makeup for boho shoots for about 6 months but had not had the self love to step in front of the lens myself. So when it was my turn to get naked on a BEAUTIFUL piece of art in front of a few 100 people i really had to pull some love from myself. I’d have to say it was the most peaceful and calm i had felt the entire week.. even though i was filled with nervous butterflies ..because of the audience..  i am so thankful to have that shoot to mark a big turning point in my life. [thanks bohocrush]

My first night back in Reno wasn’t real.. my brain stayed on the playa for a good 4 months. Even as i got back to the 9 to 5 grind i continued to live my life as a gift. I brought back love and left behind my inhibitions. So far it’s been the most freeing experience of my life.. and i know BM’08 was just the beginning.

Until reading g’s post i hadn’t realized how much i miss the playa and the family.. mostly because i live life with a burner mind set every day and i surround myself with my burning man community just about every weekend. I suppose it’s the mass that i miss.. the collective of like minded in a city built from the playa up.. by the most wonderfully giving people.. the dpw .

Thank you g for stirring up my playa pot and opening up my own reflections on burning man.. you triggered thoughts that have been laying quiet for a few months. I think it’s important to relive experiences as the emotions flood back into your body.. especially since i won’t be making it out to the playa this year. I’ll be putting my energy and love into projects with bohocrush. I’m so excited for what is to come.. and i can’t wait for my time to make it back to Black Rock City.

Love & Gratitude
ms. pussy