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: ) well i almost forgot.. i wanted to share these little Qik videos of our hike the other day. I’ve gone through a wind tunnel of growth in the last few days. I’m feeling so thankful for the path i’m on. Sending love and gratitude.

enjoy.

everything felt like magic!

Again.. it’s hard to get the beauty across with an iphone camera, but i feel the need to capture these moments of inspiration so that i may go back and reflect when i’m feeling stuck or need a reminder of where my bliss shines : )

Even the smallest things in nature bring me so much joy. I was so excited to see this little waterfall. I’ve been drawn to water lately.. calmed by it’s voice and soothed by it’s blanketing touch. Feeling new.

it was so inspiring to be out in nature today! I went on a hike with sho and g and it was just what i needed.  Surrounded by the life of  trees, birds, flowers, wild grasses, damp meadow floors, beautiful rainbow spectrum of flowers, and the buzz of tiny bugs going about their day.

I found a lot of inspiration from the fallen trees around me. The gentle giants who had met their maker and fallen to create more life. Each tree  trunk decomposing in geometric patters. cubes. smaller and smaller the longer it lays there. Some of them worn smooth by the weather creating a metallic almost silk texture that i could not capture in a photo. I brought my iphone and captured a few moments, but i appreciate the times when there is something so beautiful that you can only really experience their beauty in the moment with your eyes : )

Another moment of beauty. . sho & g: observing two people who are so in love was as breath taking as the meadow. They have so much warmth and bliss in their hearts it is truly a gift to be able to observe love at this level. Their bliss has been inspirational on my path and i am thankful to have their light in my life.

now that my mind is on this elated and fresh path i would love to know..
what about nature inspires you? feel free to leave a comment : ) I would LOVE to learn and share more.
when your brain is full and you need to reset. . what do YOU do for new inspiration? : )

love!

feeling the heat of the day fade and trying to net my thoughts as they continuously escape my grasp
returning as i begin to figure out the last one.
switching places.
teasing my confusion.
laughing at me.
I do this to myself. sexual cognition blending with reality.. true desire.
rollercoastering for the first time in…
months.
Needing to seal my eyelids. commit some intoxicated memories into subconscious. recycle them into energy. fuel. function. feeling.
compressing awkward unfamiliar energy.
crown to soles for my soul.
. .    . . .
and back through again. feeling lighter and blissful with each pass.
empty this carrier of anything but
joy
love.
Energetically venting what i do not want to carry as mine. rebirth.reuse.recycle. sweating it, exhaling it, brushing it, releasing it from ducts. rinsing it off. leaving ample space to be refilled. free refills.
thankful for the absence of reassurance.

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about the little things i do on a daily basis..which lead and build on the bigger things i do on a daily basis.. which also lead to the little and big things that i DON’T do on a daily basis.. both good and bad..

We are such little beings with such few requirements for survival yet some insist on making things complicated. dramatic. hard.. or some do things that make them unhappy because they “HAVE TO”.
says who?
why? when did the masses get permission to tell me yes or no? why can’t i quit my job and persue a life of beautiful artistic bliss.. doing what i WANT to do in order to get by.. survive yet still remain 100% in my bliss and live in a world i create.. i have a choice.
I gave my notice at work today. It felt like the right thing to do : ) and i’m happy with the decision.
I’ve pulled out a new focus from within myself in the last 48 hours. I know what i don’t want to be doing and i suppose that’s one step closer to discovering the path that will lead me to what i want.
at this moment i just want to be happy. and create these things that sit in my mind.. in my sexual, creative,  blissful, dancing life vault.
Well.. it’s open now.. let us see what’s inside.

i will do what i desire in order to survive. I’m not afraid. It feels good to be making decisions in my life based on what i want to do and not what everyone around me thinks i should do.
more to come..
for now.. back to random rab and Lord of the Flies
sleep sweet

I have been having the most vivid and wild dreams the last few nights.
Usually they’re PG13 at most but last night..
well.. last night it got a little more sexual
allow me to elaborate

i was in an unfamiliar bed in a city that is much noisier than the one i live in.
The night air was crisp and salty.. not quite thick but heavy enough to require only a sheet for a blanket.
I lay there naked with my focus on the muffled noises outside of your open window
and the soft moan of a fan on the window ledge and music playing low.
My pussy was pulsating like it does when i’ve had a good slow deep hard fuck..
i was euphoric.. unaware of the day.. time.. anything but the wet pleasure dripping between my legs.

Your touch pulled me out of a speechless trance and my toes went numb as all the blood in my body would rush to wherever you pressed your hands.
holding me.. Laying behind me you rubbed your hands up my chest over my breasts and stopped at my neck.. your grip was firm but you didn’t squeeze.. only pulled my face to yours and kissed me long and wet.. our mouths engulfed in each others lust.. you whispered low and rhythmic in my ear “again?..more.. can i have you again?” the way you asked it i could tell you already knew the answer but i kept you wondering without an answer just a little longer. Your hands now running up between my shoulder blades you gathered a hand full of my hair and gently pulled exposing the back of my neck and making a clear path for you to kiss and bite.. making my back arch and a sigh of delight leak from my lips. This feels familiar.. as though in this dream life.. you do this often and know how to play with me just how i like it.
Your hands run firmly down my side and over my hips. you grabbed my ass with conviction.. you knew all the pressure points of my sexual being. you flipped me over on my belly and sunk your fingers in.. massaging my butt.. my head was dizzy as the blood in my body raced to keep up with your skillful hands. All of that rubbing made my ass perk up.. my pussy begging for attention. a lick. a pet. the hot sting of a spank on my ass and i couldn’t be silent anymore.. i moaned out “yes.. have me.. fuck me..please”
You handled my request nicely.. ass in the air you licked my pussy.. warm tongue.. slowly teasing. around my clit.. sucking lightly.. knowing you could now have me in any way you please..
I breathed deeply and slowly.. enjoying every teasing moment of it.
slowly you put the tip of your cock in my pussy. ALL senses were alert. even the tips of my fingers tingled with delight. slowly.. gently.. you tipped in teasing.. making me moan and ask for it all. with one firm grip on my ass you slowly thrusted in.. a hot wet desire i had been begging for.. my pussy full of your penis.
You fucked me any way i asked for it.. all night.. taking breathers now and then.. our legs tangled in the sheet as we talked between fucking.
I climaxed the last fuck we had.. as the sun came up.. me on top.. you sitting up in bed.. your cock deep inside me.. hands bound behind my back as you pulled my hair and played with a vibrator on my clit .

I woke breathing heavy and a little confused as to why it wasn’t real.
: ) looking forward to going to sleep tonight.. even if we don’t fuck.. i still like dreaming about you.

Feeling so inspired.. listening to Random Rab and cloud jumping while i sort through my big bounce experiences and clean my room. sending love! What a beautiful event.. full of love and soulful shape shifting music!
Surrounded by so much energy..
i brought some home with me.
the trees.. river.. breeze.. birds.. people.. butterflies.. all dancing and giving their life energy to the event.
Here is a little of what came through to me:

feel my soul.
the wind and water move me
on the wings of butterflies
this new frequency inside of me.. the vibration of bees
brushing hands with the tops of the trees
recycling death
exchanging life
the connection we all have and should not ignore.
Don’t fear the unknown when it knocks on your door.
open. wings spread.
bright eyes see this path that all eyes know
love
thankfulness
My desire is to give
lift you up
Share this bliss
beam my message through light of the moon
cold water rush clearing your mind
in preparation for a gift
only the loving kind.
Seeking what is not hiding but i cannot find
found when my eyes see that i am no longer blind.
transition takes time
“what can be done will be done”
teaching yourself what you already know
coded in your being
cellular bliss found glowing deep within
wrapped carefully around each cell
a membrane thick and impenetrable
Always there sometimes invisible
the key for doors you’re too tall to walk through
shrink shrank shrunk
perhaps it’s the door that grew.
bliss is always there to guide you
it’s your choice to walk through
: )

At the time this photo was taken there was only one in the world that truly made me happy… my bike. And Now.. no possession in the world could make me happier than i am to simply love being alive. My joy in life comes from the feelings i get when i am just following my bliss.. going with the flow of life.. opening all the doors and windows and feeling the rush of wind in the tunnel i walk through. I will go where the wind takes me. i’m not afraid. i am happy. i love.. all. elated

A single moment..
one glance..
a brush of a strong hand on supple skin..
one spoken word yielding my undivided attention causing a muffled hum of the worlds daily vibrations.

Like fingers on a hand we are connected. Beyond reason we are destined to meet these people and influence the paths we all follow. It’s bigger than family and more complex than a soul mate. These people will be forever influential. You may meet them 100 times before you realize that they play a large roll.. you may never actually meet them in person.. some people will never know that they exist as a link to the bliss you follow. When you collide with one of these energies.. absorb the  love.. share your bliss.. and don’t be scared. We are human. individuals. complex simple beings who create a life one moment at a time. All we have is right now. this breath. one blink. quiver. pulsate. sigh with approval of this memory. unchangeable. always learning and sharing without ever really  knowing the lessons we have gifted to one another.

feeling connected and thankful today.. had to share : )