nopantsdance

feeling the heat of the day fade and trying to net my thoughts as they continuously escape my grasp
returning as i begin to figure out the last one.
switching places.
teasing my confusion.
laughing at me.
I do this to myself. sexual cognition blending with reality.. true desire.
rollercoastering for the first time in…
months.
Needing to seal my eyelids. commit some intoxicated memories into subconscious. recycle them into energy. fuel. function. feeling.
compressing awkward unfamiliar energy.
crown to soles for my soul.
. .    . . .
and back through again. feeling lighter and blissful with each pass.
empty this carrier of anything but
joy
love.
Energetically venting what i do not want to carry as mine. rebirth.reuse.recycle. sweating it, exhaling it, brushing it, releasing it from ducts. rinsing it off. leaving ample space to be refilled. free refills.
thankful for the absence of reassurance.