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My first year on the playa was 2008 American Dream and let me tell you… Black Rock City is a sureal dream land where love and light is in every speck of dust. I don’t think i will ever look at life the same after my first experience on the playa.

It’ s about that time again and all my friends are gathering to plan their camps and organize their chaos. I on the other hand have been stirring my memories.

such a beautiful soul

So what’s been stiring my memory pot? well, last week @gcrush ’s playa shoot went up and she followed it up with a blast from playa past. The few experiences she shared evoked so much longing and gratitude it made my eyes well up with tears.

My first night on the playa was the sunday before the gates opened. We were having a HUGE party for the dpw  i got to bar tend with the wheel of debauchery.

i painted it myself hahaa

It turns out i’m quite the naughty bar tender. I was getting cock flashes.. pussy flashes.. spanks.. licks.. whips.. motor boats.. and all sorts of creative things that weren’t even on the wheel.  I was given the name Ms.Pussy because of my kitty ear hat and got my ass branded with “skank” in pink spray paint. endless fun!! I’ll never forget those 9 days  with my family of strangers.

I fell down a rabbit hole:

and i landed into a world created by @gcrush and the community of bohocrush kids.

i must say that my most precious journey on the playa was the time spent alone.. it seemed as though people were paired up exploring together but i spent the majority of my time with myself.. exploring in the sunshine and absorbing life in the darkenss. I got to know so much about me.  . .

i am forever grateful to have had my first bohocrush photo shoot at my first burn. I had been doing hair and makeup for boho shoots for about 6 months but had not had the self love to step in front of the lens myself. So when it was my turn to get naked on a BEAUTIFUL piece of art in front of a few 100 people i really had to pull some love from myself. I’d have to say it was the most peaceful and calm i had felt the entire week.. even though i was filled with nervous butterflies ..because of the audience..  i am so thankful to have that shoot to mark a big turning point in my life. [thanks bohocrush]

My first night back in Reno wasn’t real.. my brain stayed on the playa for a good 4 months. Even as i got back to the 9 to 5 grind i continued to live my life as a gift. I brought back love and left behind my inhibitions. So far it’s been the most freeing experience of my life.. and i know BM’08 was just the beginning.

Until reading g’s post i hadn’t realized how much i miss the playa and the family.. mostly because i live life with a burner mind set every day and i surround myself with my burning man community just about every weekend. I suppose it’s the mass that i miss.. the collective of like minded in a city built from the playa up.. by the most wonderfully giving people.. the dpw .

Thank you g for stirring up my playa pot and opening up my own reflections on burning man.. you triggered thoughts that have been laying quiet for a few months. I think it’s important to relive experiences as the emotions flood back into your body.. especially since i won’t be making it out to the playa this year. I’ll be putting my energy and love into projects with bohocrush. I’m so excited for what is to come.. and i can’t wait for my time to make it back to Black Rock City.

Love & Gratitude
ms. pussy