nopantsdance

feeling shifted, on track.
full of universal vibrations and awakening knowledge.
curious… questions whose words have not yet formed structure in my mind.

Awareness of self, of motivation, of desire.
one fiber in an infinitely spiraling fabric of time.
life, death, cyclical resurrections of consciousness.
a brain weighted with new information
yet remaining light as air
moving through the infinitely small, infinitely large, dense space around me.

reflecting inwards in a world that currently reflects outward.
reflecting our faults upon each other in judgments and negativity.
disconnecting from the whole to be an individual yet seeking approval from each other.

making the choice to mirror self love and universal love.
after all.. there is only one of us here.

“the universe needs you”
finding a voice, building a vocabulary.
this information feels cellular, encoded within me
i’m now learning how to speak the language.
to communicate
to express

how could i express me to myself when i wasn’t connecting in..
completely tapping in to my own portal to the universe.
looking for the world to tell me how to be and what is right.
no one really knows what is best for me. only i can find my truth.

how does a sun worshiping plant grow in an environment made dark?
Does it adapt to the new conditions and evolve into something different?
[different] positive or negative in the sense of the word.. that is a personal choice.
or does it seek another path to light..
is there familiarity.. least resistance.
is that path not seen because of a lack of insight, is that path existing in plain sight?
is it difficult to see that path simply because a choice is made not believe?
Maybe it dies.. perhaps the way back into the light is to change form all together..
to give your matter back to the universe for use in another avenue.

living love, practicing bliss

elated.

moving slow through an ambiguous flow
staying open to several possible meanings
while every scenario becomes fleeting.
chasing my lucid dreams

slipping through my fingers.
anticipating that kiss that hasn’t happened
enjoying it as the thought lingers.

curiosity often kills the cat
so i’m doing my best to decipher
cryptically straight forward answers.
perplexing brevity leaves me without clarity.

an unpredicted derelict fate
a vessel soon abandoned by both
without any hope or intention of returning
left with a sweet taste of yearning

i received your message
and learned my lesson
now my choices have left me discerning.
quick to understand
that as quickly as i’ve got it
its slipped out of my hand.

the future is unknowable,
but i don’t seek that insight.
i just want to open my heart
and let in more light.

If you haven’t met yet.. let me introduce you to @nikkiNOISE. Nikki was in town visiting for the holidays so i was eager to book her a shoot before she was swept away on her adventures in life.. next time we do a photo shoot with nikki we will be traveling to her : )

Nikki is always a pleasure to work with. She makes the cutest little dorky faces at me while i’m doing her hair and makeup.. which is always a nice reminder to smile and be silly.

This girl could keep herself entertained forever with the endless goodies and toys she keeps in her purse: tarot cards, scarves, snacks, toys.. i bet she’s got some magic Mary Poppins stuff going on in there.

One thing i’ve always loved about nikki is her ability to just have fun in life. She is so rooted with herself yet light as a feather.. always smiling and giggling. it was such a treat to be around her energy tonight. she’s an example of why i choose to surround myself with open, positive, loving people. it would be impossible to frown around this little goddess.

Love to love you nikki!

and to compliment her sweetness.. she could totally kick someones ass if needed; )

we all play our parts in making these shoots happen. I’m so thankful to create with this team of amazing humans. thank you sho and g for allowing me this experience. i’m forever grateful.

you can find more behind the scenes of a bohocrush photo shoot posts on the bohocrush blog. And if you’re interested in being a crush doll, boho boy, or perhaps doing a shoot with someone.. please contact me and at kendra(@)bohocrush(.)com and i will be more than happy to answer questions and schedule your bohocrush photo shoot.

with love and gratitude,
kendra

I’ve been flirting with this guy
i can feel myself starting to retract.
a photo is timeless and the internet provides a barrier.
so yes… i’m shy.

i put myself out there because naked is beautiful and i’m not ashamed of my extrovert life. There is a gift in flirting openly and just being yourself. the monkey comes out and primal instincts float freely.

it’s an art to balance being me and not giving too easily.
it’s not difficult to portray my sexual side to someone i’m attracted to. i can control my hunger.
the difficulty comes in how that person receives me.
that side i can’t control used to defeat me.
i seek respect with your appreciation, reciprocation,
and if the universe wills it.. a little penetration.

with the exchange, conversion, and my deep dirty perversion you’d be surprised that it always ends at just flirting.
sometimes i like that.. a little tease to wet my kitty cat.

but now and then i remember to let the universe know what it needs to know. my intentions, desires, and then just go with the flow

tonight was @LovelyMonika’s first photo shoot with bohocrush.. and let me tell you.. this woman is a GIFT!
When someone has passion it shines.. radiates.. pulsates. I feel like i was given the best birthday present ever..

Monika : )

until tonight i’d never done pinup style hair and makeup on anyone besides myself. I was so excited to get Monika ready for her shoot. I have been researching all sorts of tip, tricks, and hints for the occasion and it all came in handy.

LisaFreemontStreet has some great you tube videos with all sorts of helpful knowledge. This one in particular stuck out in my mind as i was getting monika ready.

I am so excited for the doors that opened in my mind tonight.
My creative confidence is blossoming further and i’m so elated by the energy we all shared. There is so much passion in this world and i love to stir my hot coals and build that fire.

I think tonight was the first time i got to know more about Monika and see her sweet personality shine. one of my favorite things about boho shoots is getting to know the girls through the process.

She makes up the most delightful words.. we found that we have a few in common and she dropped a few awesome ones into my word bank.. like.. “spifandrifulus” hahaa it just sounds like the perfect way to describe how amazing the night was.

I’m so impressed with the way this girl moves. she’s very attentive and aware of her body.. she was born to be a pinup. She even practices her movements in a mirror.. something i highly suggest for all sorts of performing and modeling. seeing your body move helps create muscle memory and body awareness.

Today i was reminded to love, commit, challenge myself, do the best i can always, and step it up a notch. I feel blessed to have been given such a magical night. Thank you universe!! : )

for more awesome behind the scenes info and a perspective from @gcrush, check out the boho blog

Also, if you’re interested in shooting with boho crush, contact me at Kendra(@)bohocrush(.)com and check out this post by georgette for a little insight.

love and gratitude,
Kendra

i was sitting in front of the fire last night surrounded by the laughter and chatter of by beautiful friends and boho family, when i found myself remarkably aware of how thankful i am for my journey.

I asked myself, “are you thankful every day?”
without hesitation i answered myself, “YES! i am!”

and then i wondered.. “do i live as though i am thankful every day?” and i did not have a clear yes or no answer. Although i am aware of my deepening gratitude for this adventure, the secrets of the universe, and the joys i surround myself with, i feel like i can be actively living my life with more gratitude every day.

i am making a point to give recognition and love every day. i can either share it in my online playgrounds, or i can take time to reflect in the quiet comforts of my mind. Either way, i find joy in furthering my gratitude by living it.. acknowledging it.. and sharing it.

sending out warm thoughts and love to the universe. We’re all on one amazing journey. love, light, gratitude
kendra

we moved slow motion.
smooth like thick dark chocolate..
sweet and velvet
completely everlasting and tasty.

she sucked lightly on my tongue
gently biting my lower lip.
our breasts catching on each other then slipping from the heat.
warm glowing passion.
synchronized breathing
deep and long.. drawn out as though neither of us wanted to reach an end.. a climax.. because the rise was so exhilarating.

her hands grasped so powerfully with a tender intention.
lusting after the scent of one another.
tangled in our carefree moans and luscious curves
pulses tapping through our finger tips
a morse code of secrets between her cells and mine.

magic kisses from head to toe
a butterfly who didn’t want to pick a place to land
planned chaos fueled deep seeded wanting.
enraptured in the moment with a cosmic driving force

a moment so wet you could drink it.
desert heat dehydration finally being quenched.
all nerves exposed
tingling with anticipation
lead by the unpredictable.

a moment so beautiful
my mouth wrapped around her juicy pussy
her mouth caressing mine
keeping time with the song that started this dance.
Taking us on a roller coaster of lusting.
both of our bodies grasping.. holding so gently
and racing with the ride.
breathing in deeply the scent of one another.
intoxicated by such a hypnotic flower.

both of us riding the same wave of awareness.
matching moans in a song like conversation.
humming whispers of pleasure to one another
until we’ve come to a point of maximum capacity
and must release this pleasure into each others mouths.

indescribable senses of desire pour out as i feel her pussy throb and taste the sweet satisfaction of our sexual journey.

tasting myself on her lips.. tasting her on mine
that beautiful kiss.
a cocktail of passion and bliss.
two goddesses melded into one

learning lessons from the way things grow..
thrive..
reproduce..
fall..
die..
decompose..
recycle..
fertilize..

grow.

i had the most beautiful conversation with the moon.
she explained the reason our tides pull so magnetically together into one..
until everything is so unified we cannot decipher who belongs to the energy or if it belongs to us.
it’s a circular path.
a vortex of knowledge that we pool into one consciousness without ego.
this lesson is that we are all one with no power over another.
our turmoil is our inner struggle to let go of the control and just be.
to coexist.
to co create.
to live as community.
to live in communication free from limitation.
without the power struggle there is really only one of us here.

I’ve been off on a little adventure for the last 2 weeks and while i have been limited to my internet and phone access i have been managing to take a few photos of a few of the random.. silly.. and delightful things that i am doing.

let me introduce you to the tank. haha. i’ve been talking about ways i want to help our environment and one way is to grow coral to restore damaged reefs. When i arrived to this beauty i was at a loss for words. since i’ve been here we’ve added 3 fish, a new coral structure, and a bunch of cute little (and BIG) snails. excited to have a tank of my own some day.. the size of a swimming pool : )

I’ve got plans for this tank before i leave.. those plans include an evening of my headphones blazing random rab, one of LuLu’s special golden ticket chocolate bars, and a cozy spot on the floor haha. shoots.. fun WILL be had.

another adventure:
if you haven’t noticed.. @gcrush and i LOVE mighty high chai. while down this rabbit hole i have managed to drink this chai every day for the last 16 days. and i’ve started time traveling : ) i have even been helping make it. so fun!!

their new website is under construction so look out for that link.. wanna get mighty high?! hehehee

can’t wait for this to hit stores.. it will blow you away.

I’ve also been introduced to this yummy treat:

I’m a lover of frozen creamy treats and i’m not so good with the dairy stuff so when i found THIS i was so excited.. it’s made of coconuts and uses agave nectar for sweetener. it’s better than any icecream i’ve ever had. i hope i can find it back in reno. YUM!

art bliss:
My eyes have been blessed to be sleeping in a room full of eric nez paintings. This place is filled with his art and it fills me with bliss to be around them every day. on this adventure.. I have gotten the pleasure to get to know this man a little and he is such a sweet soul. . and he’s got a sexy beard. meow! looking forward to having him paint something for me.

these are my 2 favorites in the house:

we recently spent an entire day hula hooping, dancing, and playing instruments in the living room. I picked up a flute for the first time in ages. i played for 8 years and it felt so good to just let go and jam. we have all been working so hard.. the rain provided for a wonderful day off of musical movement bliss.

i hope everyone is enjoying their journey. i look forward to returning to the internet, but for now i am enjoying life in the moment.. in love.. in bliss.. in a constant state of learning.

sending love and gratitude.